Tuesday, 22 February 2011

Right-side-up

Life is a roller-coaster, a veritable cauldron of emotions, experiences, excitements and the humdrum mundaneness..that somehow balance each other out. Looking at fading pictures (that kindly helpful technically inclines well-wishers brighten up for me!) and grown up children, greying friends and  sometimes creaking joints, my mind goes into flashback mode and I can almost hear the sounds of Life..as it used to be.... before it became used-to-be..
Two of us in this 28-roomed mansion, trying not to get lost..in the confines of our now tiny boundaries... giving space, taking space... and getting "spaced out" of our minds. Its strange how two people who have grown together, share beliefs and values, respect and love, children and pets, ups and downs.. suddenly reach out to clutch separate straws to survive. Each lost in spaces vaster than these 28 rooms...
there is so much work, so many friends, so much society drumming its presence into every neuron, every sinew, every synapse of our lives.. yet at times the desolate empty spaces reach inwards into my soul. The loneliness surfaces from the bubbling cauldrons of days and nights..and spreads its tentacles into reason and sanity.
The world looks strange upside down..
Valiantly attempting to snap the icy bonds of negativity and sadness, I find myself reach for the cyber world..switching on a netbook here, a PC there, mobiles inbetween.. searching searching..for some denizen of the so-called artificial world.. to share a thought, a dream, a word. And lo and behold! Two cheerful, happy, warm, loving green dots light up.. and engulf my dimming world with brilliant sunshine ... A "Hi", a "moment "shared, a loving "Good Night", and a signing off "I Love you mom".. and I am Right-side-up again :-))))
Thank you Aanchal. Thank you Brat:-)
You don't know how much these tiny gestures mean to my ricketty, topsy-turvy world :-)

1 comment:

  1. And, you don't how just talking to you sets our topsy-turvy world straight, Ma. :) :)

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